As much as I don't want to believe the lyrics to this song, it's getting harder these days.
I just absolutely fell in love with this song when I first heard it
It's from the Broadway musical Chess
It's called Nobody's Side
 

Made by the lovely nevaeh86 


Made by the lovely shimosaki 
 

THANK YOU...

for calling me
for still being the same person I left
for not being upset with me
for being honest with me
for making me laugh
for making me smile
for telling me things are ok
for being the one I love

I have missed you more then you can ever imagine.
Talking with you tonight has made me feel so much better.
I really needed it so I am so happy that you called me.

I can't wait to see you again.
I love you

My Will
 

And because they TOTALLY deserve it right now


OMFGOMFGOMFGOMFGOMFG
 KAT-TUN  ...
Rescue  ...
 Kame  ...
 Jin  ...
Maru ...
 EVERYBODY <3

I am in love with their next single.
I can not wait for it to come out.
They sound fantastic
And look fantastic
And just are fantastic
(squee)(flail)(dies)

(hides behind anything and everything)

Yeah I finally posted my first fanfic. Anyone interested in reading and I hope someone will be, you can find it here

http://community.livejournal.com/bigbang_fanfic/85939.html

So yeah...
 

So I just got back to the dorms after being at the doctors most of the day.
Apparently I was wheezing too bad for the doctor to be able to hear my lungs well enough
So they decided that they needed to get my asthma under control first
So i have to go back in 5 weeks for them to be able to really look at my lungs
(sighs)
But hey, I can sort of breathe better now
 

Yes I changed it again.
And yes it's Big Bang again.
I can't help it ok?
They're just so freaking pretty and amazing all teh time.
Soooo yeah, I like it a lot.

Anyways, health is still ok. going back to the doctors on Tues
Will let you know what I find out then

Mardi Gras is coming up soon
Yaaaaaaaaaaay^^
Carnival Time XD


 

Really?! JiYong really?!
First you go and do backflips and own my face
Then you finally tell the world the obvious that you love stars
(Yes I knew this but you didn't have to come out and say it)
And now I find out you're a fucking theatre major!!!
REALLY?!
Can you stop please?
This isn't fair anymore.
Like seriously JiYong... STOP IT
Just.... ugh!
I hate you sometimes. You know that?
Damnit, stop being perfect.
(cries)

 

So I just got back from the doctors and guess what?
My asthma is back. I am going back on the medications I was taking years ago when I still had it.
Funfun right?
(rolls eyes)
At least its only asthma and nothing more.

Oh and for some reason my stupid tonsils decided to stat bothering me.
They are swollen atm and the doctor said to keep an eye on them
If the problem persists in the next two days or so to go get it checked on again
That I might need to get them taken out
More fun right?

(sighs) Oh well... (goes to watch JiYong being amazing to make me feel better)


 

Playing around with webcam settings which results in new pictures of me XD
I just got out the shower so i really like the way my hair looks atm which also pushed me forward to play with webcam.
Anyways, here are two that I really liked if you care to see them.

( Clicky for cute pictures )

And because I can, here are some gifts for my bestest friends.

arichan1981 
( Jae... )

dora0chan 
( Yosuke... )

magicmelodyx 
( Hae... )

mardigrasmaven 
( Bae... )

minbeansmexbeam 
( TOP... )

seket_ninstuku 
( Rella... )

xmidnightrain 
( Dai-chan... )

Yeaaaah... Tarryn being bored leads to many things. Hope you girls liked your pictures XD
Love you kids.
Heading to watch more BB videos XD


 

So our epic night out. We came up with our names from SHINee, minbeansmexbeam 

  bought SHINee shoes(by failing with "PAPER SHOES"), magicmelodyx 

 bought TOP scarfs, and myself bought a G-Bunny. In Come to Play, GD was playing with a bunny in the pajama scene and I thought it was one fo the cutest things he has ever done. So I was convinced that I ahd to get myself a stuffed bunny and name him JiYong.
So we go into Build-a-Bear and we look at teh clothes to make sure that I can dress him up as GD and low and behold they do, so I bought him. And he's the cutest thing ever. I love him soooo freaking much already.


( Wanna see my bunny? )

Then to keep up with our new tradition, we all went out to Star Wok for dinner, and goofed off as usual.
But the workers didn't think we were quite that crazy this time.
Then we had to go pick up mardigrasmaven 's brother, and after we dropped him off we played DJ Oppa again which is always hilarious. We really should make our own radio show so that we can play KPop all the time XDDD.

Okay guys, my head hurts from laughing too much with minbeansmexbeam  so I am heading off to try to sleep.
Naito~


 

Seriously guys?! I can't love these boys anymore. This can't be healthy anymore. They did a parody of HYD, one of my all time favorite JDramas.

Cast:
Makino - Dae
Tsukasa - TOP
Rui - GDragon
Soujiro - Bae
Akira - Ri

(Is dying)

OMG Dae as a girl is by the far the best thing ever next to GD being Rui. And it so happens that Rui is my favorite character from this drama and GD just so happens to be playing him. They are trying to kill me I swear.
TOP's acting is sooooo good XD
Loooools@ the kiss scene. TOP's reaction was priceless. And Ri and Bae were too adorable
D'awwwwwwwwwww GD kissing Dae on the forehead is too cute.
The background music is fantastic XD
(squee) GD Stopping TOP from punching Dae... I love these boys too much I tell ya
TOP's stares could tear a whole through you I swear. He's got this whole Tsukasa anger issue down pact. LOL
GD trying to say Tsukasa just killed me X_X
Wait... teh F4 group hug just killed me. X_X;;
AHHHHHHH TOP and Dae kiss <333 AHHHHHHH Again!!!
And TOP running his hands down Dae's back... AHHHH

RIP Tarryn
You will be missed terribly

 

So lately I have been obsessed with this one KPop girls' song. It's just so freaking catchy. I just start singing it out of nowhere and dancing along. I was a little ashamed at first until I watched these videos. And then I felt much better about myself, knowing that the guys I love do the same thing. (giggles)

www.youtube.com/watch - FT Island

www.youtube.com/watch - SS501

 

www.youtube.com/watch - SHINee (Key and Jonghyun)

So yes, I feel much better now. XD

Oh and here's the original for those who don't know it

www.youtube.com/watch - KARA

So it finally happened. I finally had my first dream with JiYong in it. And I must say I don't think I have ever woken up this happy before in a long time. The dream didn't make much sense, as they never usually do. But I was just very happy and giddy that Ji was in it. We weren't dating or anything (pouts) but we were like really close and seemed to have been flirting so who knows. Stupid dreams teasing me. But it was just amazing. (sighs) Wish I could continue the dream and see if the flirting leads to something else. (giggles)

By the way, their new PMP Photoshoot owns me hard. Ji and his headband = Tarryn pwned. I seriosuly need to get me some of those, since I wear headbands all the time and now that I know he does too, well all the more reason, right? And they all look fantastic in the shoot. Not exactly sure what they are promoting but I want whatever it is since well, they are promoting it. (dies) THese boys really got me good. Oh well, I don't care anymore. (giggles)

I shall leave you with the picture from the photoshoot that I chose as my desktop background. XD


Aren't they just adorable? (wiggles hands)
 

I know I just posted but I have to post again.
I am watching HYD the final right now because I fell asleep last night before I could watch it.
AND OMFG MutsuJun and his english is fantastic.
And he even says "Fuck". I am dying.
MutsuJun, now I remember why I fell in love with you.
And if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have gotten into the Asian music fandom as early as I did.
So MutsuJun, arigatou.

Edit: It's still going on but I had to come back and say OMFG Shun has gotten way too fucking tall. They were in the jet and he went to stand up and he hit his head on the ceiling. Looooool^^

Edit 2: Shirtless MutsuJun is amazingly hot. And he's wet too. Are they trying to kill me?
 
Edit 3: So I am dying here, trying not to squee too loud to wake up everyone because Rui isn't at the wedding. My arms are going everywhere and I almost knocked my laptop over. And then magician here decided to make the priest disappear and then in his place stands Rui. WTH?! They love playing with my emotions, don't they? (runs to finish the last 7 mins)

 What'​​s a fact about​ the last perso​n who had their​ arms aroun​d you?
She's one of the best roommates EVER
What do you curre​ntly hear?​​
HSJ - Mayanoka no Shadow Boy
Where​ did you get the shirt​ you are weari​ng?​​
My Mommy^^
Could​ you go a day witho​ut eatin​g?​​
Yep, done it plenty of times (not something I should sound so pleased with)
Do you wish you never​ dated​ someo​ne you dated​?​​
Nope
Do you know anyon​e that smoke​s weed?​​
Sure do
What was last thing​ you drank​?​​
This red drink... not sure what flavor it was though to tell you the truth
What was for dinne​r last night​?​​
mardigrasmaven magicmelodyx minbeansmexbeam 
and I went to Sonic!!! I had popcorn chicken.
Does your ex miss you?
Yeah
Does the last perso​n you share​d a bed with mean anyth​ing to you?
Yes, and I miss him terribly
Do you curse​ in front​ of your paren​ts?​​
Yep, they don't care
When a frien​d walks​ out of your life,​​ do you go after​ them or let them go?
It depends on the situation
Does anyon​e hate you?
I'd hope not but there probably is one
What u doing tonight?
watching HYD the final movie
Do you belie​ve every​one deser​ves a secon​d chanc​e?​​
Yes
Have you ever playe​d a Wii?
Nope
Who was the last perso​n you talke​d to today​?​​
Talking to my baby girl xmidnightrain 
 at the moment
Are you sarca​stic?​​
Yes
Where​ were you at 2:00 this morni​ng?​​
In my bed trying to fall asleep
What color​ are your eyes?​​
glass brown
Do you hate anyon​e?​​
That's not really my thing
Do you belie​ve in love at first​ sight​?​​
Not really no
What are you going​ to be for hallo​ween this year?​​
A faerie more then likely
What'​​s somet​hing that bothe​rs you about​ girls​?​​
The cattyness
Do you curre​ntly like anyon​e?​​
Not really no
How often​ do you hold back from sayin​g what you are think​ing?​​
I use to all the time but I'm getting better at saying it
Last serio​us hug?
I consider all my hugs serious, so at the dorms
Is the last perso​n you kisse​d more than a year older​ than you?
Nope
Last Decem​ber,​​ what was your love life like?​​
Just broken up
Has a girl/​​boy sat on your bed?
Yesh
Who'​​s the funni​est perso​n you know?​​
My roommates
magicmelodyx 
  and mardigrasmaven 
Are you afrai​d to grow up?
Nah
What is your worst​ subje​ct in schoo​l?​​
English.. I'm just not a writer
What is somet​hing you wish you had more of?
Pictures of Ji and Kame
Last perso​n you saw other​ than your famil​y?​​
My roommates
Who was the last perso​n to be in your bed with you?
Josh
Do you have someo​ne who you can be your compl​ete self aroun​d?​​
Sure do
Are you usual​ly the first​ to say sorry​ when you'​​re in a fight​,​​ or the last?​​
First
Is there​ a perso​n of the oppos​ite sex who means​ a lot to you??
Yes there is
Hones​tly how many peopl​e have you falle​n for?
2
Do you think​ you'​​re appro​achab​le?​​
I'd like to think so yeah
How late did you stay up last night​?​​
I turned my comp off at around 130 ish
Does seein​g coupl​es in love make you mad.
No, people deserve to be happy
Who do you tell the most to?
My roommates
magicmelodyx   and
mardigrasmaven 
 and my baby girl
xmidnightrain  and my lil sis dora0chan 
          Do you think​ the last perso​n you kisse​d cares​ for you?
Yes he does
Who was the last thing​/​​perso​n you took a pictu​re with?​​
My little sister Sydney
If you could​ pack up and leave​ your life now to move away,​​ would​ you?
I did that already just a few months ago. (giggles)
How did you get one of your scars​?​​
fell down and scraped myself
What'​​s your curre​nt probl​em?​​
Missing my other family
Do you have a best frien​d?​​
Yes I do (hugs)
Does someo​ne have a crush​ on you?
I don't know of anyone who does
Do you and your best frien​d have 'a song'​​?​​
No we sure don't (ponders choices)
Have you ever done anyth​ing illeg​al?​​
..... Yes (hides)
Who was the last perso​n to play with your hair?​​
My 4 year old cousin
Missi​ng someo​ne now?
Yes, a few people actually
Ever punch​ed someb​ody in the face becau​se of someo​ne you loved​?​​
I've never punched anyone period
Ever had your heart​ broke​n?​​
Sure have :/
Do you hate it when someo​ne doesn​'​​t reply​ to your msgs?​​
I don't hate it but it can get annoying
Do you think​ relat​ionsh​ips ever last?​​
Depends on the relationship
Are you waiti​ng for somet​hing?​​
Yesh, Spring break
Have you ever kisse​d someo​ne and hated​ it?
Actually yes
Is there​ a frien​d,​​ or ex that you will never​ forge​t?​​
Yepyep
Could​ you ever forgi​ve a cheat​er?​​
Forgive as in take back no. But just plain forgive and be friends yes
Ever kisse​d someo​ne you regre​tted after​?​​
I don't regret things
Hones​tly,​​ if you could​ go back 5 month​s and chang​e somet​hing would​ you?
Yes